Friends

I have enough friends.  Sure it is always nice to add a few more.  But sometimes having friends is a pain in the butt, I love you guys but sometimes something just goes weird.

I have a friend who posts on almost everything I post on Facebook.  Fine, whatever.  Been going on for a few months, known the guys a long time.  Love him!! He is awesome.  Such a great friend.  But everyone is getting their nuts in a roar over his posts.  So they are all like, he likes you more than a friend.  I am like whatever, not that I would mind that.  I don't think he would ever like me like that.  He says he thinks of me as a sister - cool, I don't have the greatest relationships with my own brothers so it is nice having a guy around.  How our conversations go on Facebook - I can't imagine ever talking to my brother in such a way but whatever.  I guess that is why we aren't really related.  But anyway -  I have all of these friends feeding me these thoughts about this friend I start to wonder, what would that be like.  But I don't want to loose him as a friend - when no one else is there he is there,  he goes and does dorky kid stuff with Maggie and me that no one else will do.  He makes me laugh and smile.

I don't ever want to loose his friendship. 

At the same time, I would really love to be in a relationship, I would like to have someone who wants to hang out and do all the fun stuff that Maggie and I do.  Who will get up early on a Sunday just to go hang out at the Zoo. Someone that I can go do grown-up stuff with, instead of dragging Maggie with me. But, I suck at male/female relationships.  Hence the fact that I used a sperm donor to get pregnant.


Sometimes it is incredibly lonely to be Maggie and Me, we obviously have each other but that is it - no one else. Okay, not no one else because my parents are here.  But on the weekends they don't usually want to do the things we want to do, they have their own plans and things they want to do.

I am heading to Sun River March 9-11 I have a 1 bedroom plus loft condo rented.  It will be nice - but not sure who is going with me.  The girlfriends I took with me last spring are no longer friends.  :(