Saturday, April 30, 2011
Interview, Road Trip and more...
I had a job interview on Friday that lasted 2 hours and 15 minutes - it is for an infant classroom teacher position. I know the interview went well because I was asked back for a working interview on Tuesday - but I am not sure I am made for this kind of job. I went back to work when Maggie was a week old so I have really not spent 8+ hours a day caring for an infant in a long time. We will see how the working interview goes on Tuesday.
This weekend I took a road trip to Sun River, Oregon - went with a couple of girlfriends and had a blast!! We just went for one night because we all have kids and responsibilities - but it was really nice to eat our own dinner, take our own showers, sleep through the night, sit in the sauna and hot tub. All things that we regularly do not get to do.
I am feeling sad for Maggie, this week her schedule is being cut down to two days of school a week. I just cannot afford to send her full time right now. I am not working, thought I am looking. We also lost her full time daycare slot which makes me sick. When I find full time work I only have daycare for 3 days Monday, Tuesday and Thursday at this point.
I am seriously thinking about starting my Jill of All Trades Business - I can scoop poop, I can mow lawns, I can do a lot of things. I am still applying for every job I can find.
Gotta run, little miss is up.
This weekend I took a road trip to Sun River, Oregon - went with a couple of girlfriends and had a blast!! We just went for one night because we all have kids and responsibilities - but it was really nice to eat our own dinner, take our own showers, sleep through the night, sit in the sauna and hot tub. All things that we regularly do not get to do.
I am feeling sad for Maggie, this week her schedule is being cut down to two days of school a week. I just cannot afford to send her full time right now. I am not working, thought I am looking. We also lost her full time daycare slot which makes me sick. When I find full time work I only have daycare for 3 days Monday, Tuesday and Thursday at this point.
I am seriously thinking about starting my Jill of All Trades Business - I can scoop poop, I can mow lawns, I can do a lot of things. I am still applying for every job I can find.
Gotta run, little miss is up.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Sam the Dog
Sam, is going into intensive training to stop barking. Ugh! It is like telling Maggie not to talk. It is not right. But one of our neigbors threatened to kill Sam this past weekend. Today I spoke with a police officer about it and he said that your dog is not allowed to bark at all, not even inside your house. If someone outside of your house can hear it then it is a nusance. That is not how I read the law?
Permit any animal unreasonably to cause annoyance, alarm or noise disturbance to any person or neighborhood by barking, whining, screeching, howling, braying or other like sounds which may be heard beyond the boundary of the owner's or keeper's property under conditions wherein the animal sounds are shown to have oc-curred either as an episode of continuous noise last-ing for a minimum period of ten minutes or repeated episodes of intermittent noise lasting for a minimum period of thirty minutes. It shall be an affirmative defense under this subsection that the animal was in-tentionally provoked by a party other than the owner to make such noise. Provided, 13.305(B)(5) shall not be applicable to any lawful livestock owner or keeper; kennel or similar facility, wherein the pres-ence of livestock or the operation of a kennel or similar facility is authorized under the applicable land use and zoning laws and regulations;
So - anyway intensive training. to not bark - we are also borrowing bark collars from Angie to help us in the training process.
Well, we will see what happens.
Permit any animal unreasonably to cause annoyance, alarm or noise disturbance to any person or neighborhood by barking, whining, screeching, howling, braying or other like sounds which may be heard beyond the boundary of the owner's or keeper's property under conditions wherein the animal sounds are shown to have oc-curred either as an episode of continuous noise last-ing for a minimum period of ten minutes or repeated episodes of intermittent noise lasting for a minimum period of thirty minutes. It shall be an affirmative defense under this subsection that the animal was in-tentionally provoked by a party other than the owner to make such noise. Provided, 13.305(B)(5) shall not be applicable to any lawful livestock owner or keeper; kennel or similar facility, wherein the pres-ence of livestock or the operation of a kennel or similar facility is authorized under the applicable land use and zoning laws and regulations;
So - anyway intensive training. to not bark - we are also borrowing bark collars from Angie to help us in the training process.
Well, we will see what happens.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
My Visit to the Psychic
I love my psychic!!
Before I went I researched myself on the internet to see what they would be able to find if that was how they worked. Who knows - I was kind of skeptical. Nothing that she said or knew would you find on the internet.
She talked about how I am a strong woman and in my many past lives I have been a Male Warrior, as well as a very strong female. She talked about how in one of my past lives she sees me as being on the plains with a passel of children and now husband - apparently I have been raising children by myself for many lifetimes. (This wasn't a past life intuitive experience but my past lives were coming up so much that she hat to reference them.)
She talked about how in the past 2 years my life has gone through major change - emotional, psychological, physical people coming in and out of my life. She saw me loosing someone very important and told me that this person had major issues. She asked the persons name and I told her Heather - she said that Heather had major issues with men, and that she sought out my friendship because I have a counseling kind of personality. Heather was not a good friend for me, she lied to me and betrayed me and no matter what even if she apologized we could never be as good of friends as we were.
She saw my creativity and how much I enjoy writing. She sees me as a published writer in the future - which is interesting because I have a couple of children books floating in my head as well as my life story.
When she looked at the picture of Maggie - she said that Maggie is a very strong person. That she is a very old soul, like me, and that she has lived many lives as strong men. The said that Maggie is incredibly creative and artistic - to watch for the pictures Maggie will be drawing when she is 3-4 years old they will be awesome. She thinks that Maggie will be very athletic and talented. As well as very intelligent - she said that the sperm donor was no "farm boy" (sorry farm boys - I love ya) but a very intelligent human being. That I should expect that Maggie will want to contact him and will start talking about contacting him when she is 10-12 years old. She sees this person as being open to being contacted.
She said that in the next 2-3 years she sees me having the option of being in a "relationship" but that it is up to me - because I have that control. She also sees me as having one more baby - a BOY! when Maggie is 5-6 years old.
She told me about my parents - I don't really want to share that. That is for them.
I am sure there is so much more I am forgetting to tell you guys - I have a CD recording it was super cool and amazing.
I highly recommend her, her name is Laurie McQuary and she is in Lake Oswego, Oregon.
Before I went I researched myself on the internet to see what they would be able to find if that was how they worked. Who knows - I was kind of skeptical. Nothing that she said or knew would you find on the internet.
She talked about how I am a strong woman and in my many past lives I have been a Male Warrior, as well as a very strong female. She talked about how in one of my past lives she sees me as being on the plains with a passel of children and now husband - apparently I have been raising children by myself for many lifetimes. (This wasn't a past life intuitive experience but my past lives were coming up so much that she hat to reference them.)
She talked about how in the past 2 years my life has gone through major change - emotional, psychological, physical people coming in and out of my life. She saw me loosing someone very important and told me that this person had major issues. She asked the persons name and I told her Heather - she said that Heather had major issues with men, and that she sought out my friendship because I have a counseling kind of personality. Heather was not a good friend for me, she lied to me and betrayed me and no matter what even if she apologized we could never be as good of friends as we were.
She saw my creativity and how much I enjoy writing. She sees me as a published writer in the future - which is interesting because I have a couple of children books floating in my head as well as my life story.
When she looked at the picture of Maggie - she said that Maggie is a very strong person. That she is a very old soul, like me, and that she has lived many lives as strong men. The said that Maggie is incredibly creative and artistic - to watch for the pictures Maggie will be drawing when she is 3-4 years old they will be awesome. She thinks that Maggie will be very athletic and talented. As well as very intelligent - she said that the sperm donor was no "farm boy" (sorry farm boys - I love ya) but a very intelligent human being. That I should expect that Maggie will want to contact him and will start talking about contacting him when she is 10-12 years old. She sees this person as being open to being contacted.
She said that in the next 2-3 years she sees me having the option of being in a "relationship" but that it is up to me - because I have that control. She also sees me as having one more baby - a BOY! when Maggie is 5-6 years old.
She told me about my parents - I don't really want to share that. That is for them.
I am sure there is so much more I am forgetting to tell you guys - I have a CD recording it was super cool and amazing.
I highly recommend her, her name is Laurie McQuary and she is in Lake Oswego, Oregon.
Single Mom Statistics
"U.S. Census Bureau in November, 2009, there are approximately 13.7 million single parents in the United States today, and those parents are responsible for raising 21.8 million children (approximately 26% of children under 21 in the U.S. today)." - about.com
So what's the "average" single parent really like? According to the U.S. Census Bureau...
So what's the "average" single parent really like? According to the U.S. Census Bureau...
She is a Mother:
- Approximately 84% of custodial parents are mothers
- 20.9% have never married
- 79.5% of custodial single mothers are gainfully employed
- 27% of custodial single mothers and their children live in poverty
- 22% receive Medicaid
- 23.5% receive food stamps
Who is a Single Mother by Choice?
- A single woman who is starting out as or who will be her child’s sole parent.
- Typically a career woman in her 30’s or 40’s who wants to have a child before it’s too late.
- Some of us go to doctors for donor insemination or adopt in the US or abroad, and others accidentally became pregnant — and discovered we were thrilled.
- Single motherhood is ideally for the woman who feels she has much to give a child and who has the emotional and financial resources to support herself and her child.
- We believe that single motherhood is a viable option but we are not an advocacy group.
- We feel the choice to become a parent is a most individual one and is not right for everyone.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
200+ Jobs applied for...
Yep you read that right, I have applied for over 200 jobs. Teaching jobs, office jobs, sales jobs, customer service jobs.
I am thinking that my best bet would be to start my own business so that I have the flexibility to take care of Maggie when she is sick. Maybe, a Jill of All Trades kind of business; cleaning, grocery shopping, sick child care, errand running etc. Either that or an evening job so that I can be with her during the day. I don't know.
I wonder what my former boss would do if she was in my position...
I am thinking that my best bet would be to start my own business so that I have the flexibility to take care of Maggie when she is sick. Maybe, a Jill of All Trades kind of business; cleaning, grocery shopping, sick child care, errand running etc. Either that or an evening job so that I can be with her during the day. I don't know.
I wonder what my former boss would do if she was in my position...
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Happy Easter!
Today was a good day.
Maggie and I attended a friends baby shower, then headed to Woodburn to get new shoes for Maggie - I love the clearance section. $40 for 3 pairs of shoes.
This evening we went to my friend Tamera's house and colored Easter Eggs with her daughter and grandson. It was a lot of fun. Kind of weird because there was a big moment that happened and to her family I was a complete stranger so it was a bit weird to share that with them But they were really great about it.
Maggie kept trying to lick the vinegar/dye solution off of the eggs. She loves vinegar. She ended up with blue lips, fingers and tongue.
I am taking each moment as it comes. I really want to go see a pyschic, a real one that someone I know has seen and believes in. The reason for this is that I want to know that things will turn around for me eventually.
Maggie is doing awesome!!! She is wearing 18 month clothing she is a tall girl. She is the average height of a 2 year old and her weight falls in the 15 month category. She is a healthy growing girl. If we could just avoid these stupid colds, and bouts of vomiting, stomach flu and asthma attacks we would be in good shape.
Maggie and I attended a friends baby shower, then headed to Woodburn to get new shoes for Maggie - I love the clearance section. $40 for 3 pairs of shoes.
This evening we went to my friend Tamera's house and colored Easter Eggs with her daughter and grandson. It was a lot of fun. Kind of weird because there was a big moment that happened and to her family I was a complete stranger so it was a bit weird to share that with them But they were really great about it.
Maggie kept trying to lick the vinegar/dye solution off of the eggs. She loves vinegar. She ended up with blue lips, fingers and tongue.
I am taking each moment as it comes. I really want to go see a pyschic, a real one that someone I know has seen and believes in. The reason for this is that I want to know that things will turn around for me eventually.
Maggie is doing awesome!!! She is wearing 18 month clothing she is a tall girl. She is the average height of a 2 year old and her weight falls in the 15 month category. She is a healthy growing girl. If we could just avoid these stupid colds, and bouts of vomiting, stomach flu and asthma attacks we would be in good shape.
Friday, April 22, 2011
You're Fired!!
If I didn't have a lot of perservence I would start to take these experiences personally. I was fired today because of my attendance - I have missed work because of Maggie being sick, myself being sick (far less than for Maggie.)
Yeah - I really take the cake. I often wonder what makes me so lucky (insert sarcasm). They knew why she was sick, it is a women owned company, but they didn't care. I did everything in my power to try not to miss work - I had my mom take Maggie to as many appointments as I could, gave them advanced notice of appointments to specialist when I had to take her. But it all came down to Maggie throwing up at daycare on Monday - them calling me and me having to leave work to go get her because my Mom was out of town.
I really do not know what to do. Luckily I just went back on my anti-depressants so I am sure that has helped with my response, and I had already taken a Xanax today so I was pretty relaxed.
Someone tell me that it will get better - tell me that this crap on Anne parade will end soon. :(
One of the things that ticks me off is that they had my checks drawn up on Tuesday but didn't give them to me until today. They knew all week what was going on. I wished they had fired me on any day but today. Today was Maggie' Easter Egg hunt at school and I didn't go, I didn't ask for time off, I didn't ask to take an early lunch, I sent my dad and sister in law.
I realize they are running a business and need to make money. I wish that they had seen that I was making effort and arrangements. Did I love this job, no. But it was a decent job.
I will be okay - I have a lot of great things in my life:
1. Maggie
2. Sam
3 My family
4. My friends
5. My education
Yeah - I really take the cake. I often wonder what makes me so lucky (insert sarcasm). They knew why she was sick, it is a women owned company, but they didn't care. I did everything in my power to try not to miss work - I had my mom take Maggie to as many appointments as I could, gave them advanced notice of appointments to specialist when I had to take her. But it all came down to Maggie throwing up at daycare on Monday - them calling me and me having to leave work to go get her because my Mom was out of town.
I really do not know what to do. Luckily I just went back on my anti-depressants so I am sure that has helped with my response, and I had already taken a Xanax today so I was pretty relaxed.
Someone tell me that it will get better - tell me that this crap on Anne parade will end soon. :(
One of the things that ticks me off is that they had my checks drawn up on Tuesday but didn't give them to me until today. They knew all week what was going on. I wished they had fired me on any day but today. Today was Maggie' Easter Egg hunt at school and I didn't go, I didn't ask for time off, I didn't ask to take an early lunch, I sent my dad and sister in law.
I realize they are running a business and need to make money. I wish that they had seen that I was making effort and arrangements. Did I love this job, no. But it was a decent job.
I will be okay - I have a lot of great things in my life:
1. Maggie
2. Sam
3 My family
4. My friends
5. My education
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Want to be a teacher...
So, because I was terminated from a teaching position I am having difficulty getting to the interview for teaching jobs. On every application I fill out they ask if I have ever been terminated or had a contract revoked. Half the time I say yes and explain the situation as diplomatically as possible the other half of the time I leave it blank or I answer no to the question.
But because when I was terminated it was discussed among the bishops, priests and principals at their monthly meetings - I have been black listed from all Catholic schools.
So basically I am at the pivot point to decide if I keep fighting for something I love or do I just give up the fight and do something else? I feel totally screwed over.
I am having the hardest time - I feel so damaged from this whole experience. Damaged emotionally, mentally, psychologically. How do I get past this? I feel like everyday is a struggle and I am sick of it. I just want a break! It is so not fair - everyone else in the world can have their family and a job they like/love but it feels like a giant crap on Anne game.
That is whats going on...crap on Anne. I feel bad for Maggie for having me as her mom.
But because when I was terminated it was discussed among the bishops, priests and principals at their monthly meetings - I have been black listed from all Catholic schools.
So basically I am at the pivot point to decide if I keep fighting for something I love or do I just give up the fight and do something else? I feel totally screwed over.
I am having the hardest time - I feel so damaged from this whole experience. Damaged emotionally, mentally, psychologically. How do I get past this? I feel like everyday is a struggle and I am sick of it. I just want a break! It is so not fair - everyone else in the world can have their family and a job they like/love but it feels like a giant crap on Anne game.
That is whats going on...crap on Anne. I feel bad for Maggie for having me as her mom.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Music, dancing, reading and applying for jobs
While I am thankful to have employment now - I kind of feel like I want to get the heck out of Oregon. I am ready for the next adventure of Annie and Maggie. I was talking to a friend today and she asked me how my job was going - I said I hate it. But I think God led me to this job so I would be more motivated to find a teaching job anywhere. So as my friend Kathy says - give it up to God - done. Just waiting for his guidance.
I have applied for over 100 teaching jobs and only a small handful 1-2 are in Oregon. I am targeting states with the most teaching jobs; Florida, Utah. Arizona, New Mexico, Wyoming and Oklahoma. Quite a variety there of climates and locations. I am excited about any teaching job - but for some reason I really like the idea of teaching in Wyoming - it is a 17 hour drive back to Portland. Which is to long for a weekend trip but it is short enough for a week long trip. SO I could see us coming to visit for Thanksgiving, Christmas, Spring Break and Summer. One thing that I love about applying for these jobs is that a lot of them start in Late June/Early August.
I don't know that at this time it matters where we end up, I would like a smaller town or city. I am just so ready.
Maggie is doing awesome!!! She is cutting 2 new teeth today - thank God! I was pretty sure I was going to have to invest in a partial set of dentures ;) She has her front top and bottom now she is getting the teeth to the left of those two, one on top and one on bottom. My dad noticed them today when she was in the swing in the backyard - she was laughing and poof he saw the white. They haven't broken through the skin yet but they are very close. I just hope they aren't going to decide to go back down.
Right this minute my mini-genius is reading a book to her Grandpa. Okay she doesn't know the words but she is sitting there with the book open making sounds like she is reading. She has some great early literacy skills!!!
She is growing so much!! I went through multiple pairs of pants yesterday for her because none of them fit they were all suddenly capri length. Which is great if we ever get summer but at this rate not so much. So off to Target today to hit up the sales rack for some pants. 18month and 24 month. Wow!! How did that happen!! She is a little tall for her age but nothing outstanding. I do know she just went through a big growth spurt.
Maggie loves Music, she loves song being sang to her, listening to music on the radio or playing her own music on her baby piano. She loves dancing to the music - it is quite funny to peak at her in the rear view mirror and see her be-bopping up and down left and right.
It is so cool being her Mom!!!!
I have applied for over 100 teaching jobs and only a small handful 1-2 are in Oregon. I am targeting states with the most teaching jobs; Florida, Utah. Arizona, New Mexico, Wyoming and Oklahoma. Quite a variety there of climates and locations. I am excited about any teaching job - but for some reason I really like the idea of teaching in Wyoming - it is a 17 hour drive back to Portland. Which is to long for a weekend trip but it is short enough for a week long trip. SO I could see us coming to visit for Thanksgiving, Christmas, Spring Break and Summer. One thing that I love about applying for these jobs is that a lot of them start in Late June/Early August.
I don't know that at this time it matters where we end up, I would like a smaller town or city. I am just so ready.
Maggie is doing awesome!!! She is cutting 2 new teeth today - thank God! I was pretty sure I was going to have to invest in a partial set of dentures ;) She has her front top and bottom now she is getting the teeth to the left of those two, one on top and one on bottom. My dad noticed them today when she was in the swing in the backyard - she was laughing and poof he saw the white. They haven't broken through the skin yet but they are very close. I just hope they aren't going to decide to go back down.
Right this minute my mini-genius is reading a book to her Grandpa. Okay she doesn't know the words but she is sitting there with the book open making sounds like she is reading. She has some great early literacy skills!!!
She is growing so much!! I went through multiple pairs of pants yesterday for her because none of them fit they were all suddenly capri length. Which is great if we ever get summer but at this rate not so much. So off to Target today to hit up the sales rack for some pants. 18month and 24 month. Wow!! How did that happen!! She is a little tall for her age but nothing outstanding. I do know she just went through a big growth spurt.
Maggie loves Music, she loves song being sang to her, listening to music on the radio or playing her own music on her baby piano. She loves dancing to the music - it is quite funny to peak at her in the rear view mirror and see her be-bopping up and down left and right.
It is so cool being her Mom!!!!
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