Live

I still love Idaho and Maggie is back to loving Idaho.  My parents came at the beginning of the month and the transition after they left was rough on both Maggie and me.

School is awesome!  My tiny little class is amazing, I really feel like I am meant to be here with these particular children right now.  I love my co-workers, we have so much fun when we are together.  I  still feel like not being in an elementary classroom for the past 4 years was a detriment, it has been hard to get back into all the "business of educating."  It will get better.

Halloween is coming, Maggie and I are going to be Fairies.  Looking forward to our first real year of trick or treating, hoping that we can go to a few special events like Boo at the Zoo (Zoo Boise) and maybe do trick or treating in town on Saturday.  Then head to Boise for Halloween evening.

Sam the dog seems to be hanging there.  He stayed in Portland with my parents, he would not have handled the move well and we would not have been able to find a place to live. When my parents come over here though he stops eating - he has lost 10 pounds this month because they were gone for 4 days.  Poor old puppy.  His birthday is in December and he will be 10 years old.  Which taking into consideration all his issues is probably a long life.
 
We are bummed that we aren't going to be able to head home for Thanksgiving :(  first time ever for both of us that we have missed.  Christmas is only a month away and then we will be home.

I love Idaho

I am loving, loving here.  I love my job, my students, my co-workers, my school, the weather, Maggie's daycare, our apartment.  I love it all.  I have not been this happy in years.  I am meant to be here, right now - in this place.

I googled "Single Mom by Choice, Boise Idaho" last night, and a blog by a SMBC who lives in Boise came up - her posts were the first 8 on the google list.  I decided to check it out - maybe she ran a SMBC group from there or had a link.  In Portland there was a SMBC group where I occasionally attended events.  I love having the support from other moms who were in the trenches - but all of these moms had perfect children who were never sick.  This mom whose blog I read has been put through the ringer, her oldest daughter almost died when she was 1 from a systemic infection, her second child was born 90% deaf.  As I perused her blog I felt such a strong connection to this mom, like we probably would really "get" each other.  I did something I never do - I reached out to her on Facebook.  I am hoping that she responds to me.

I read this mom's posts and I realized that I was putting off having another child because I was scared that something else would happen with Maggie.  I realized that having another child is a gift to Maggie, a gift to myself.  I will never be rich, we will probably never go on extravagant vacations, cruises outside the country. Maybe, we will just be happy - have adventures, road trips to see family. 

What's it like on your side of the fence?

Is the grass greener?
Are there less weeds?

Are you lonely?
Are you happy?

My view, I see holes in your home,
cracks in the foundation,
the walls are starting to crumble.

Is the grass greener?
Are there less weeds?

Are you lonely?
Are you happy?

I hear the creaks and groans of the old timber bones.
Your house, don't look like a home.

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What's it like on your side of the fence?

Is the grass greener?
Are there less weeds?

Are you lonely?
Are you happy?

My view, I see holes in your home,
cracks in the foundation,
the walls are starting to crumble.

Is the grass greener?
Are there less weeds?

Are you lonely?
Are you happy?

I hear the creaks and groans of the old timber bones.
Your house, don't look like a home.

Eye dr

It has been almost 4 years since I had an eye exam and got new glasses. I hate the eye Dr, last time I did this I freaked out when they put the dialating drops in. Wahhh, I want my mommy.

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Another UTI

I would love to know what the lesson is for us to learn from Maggie being sick so much. It seems pretty cruel. Poor kid has been up the last 2 night with raging fevers, vomiting and just generally not feeling well. That also translates to me being up, and having to function as a grown up the following day.

A few years ago when Maggie was frequently sick I was thinking about baby.#2 a friend asked me what I would do if both kids were sick since I was already missing so much work. I am wondering if this is the universes way of telling me one and done. I am not sure how I would handle 2 sick kids on my own. Then again I am thinking Maggie will be 5 before I cross that bridge again so maybe it will be easier.

Maggie always has bacteria that are resistant to the first antibiotic the Dr puts her on. We don't know it for a few days because they have to culture the bacteria and figure out what drug will treat it. While we are waiting and treating with the wrong med she is getting sicker. The pediatric urologist said at her last appt that our leash was shorter and if she had another infection before her ultrasound in 2 weeks that our leash will get even shorter. So I am guessing that we are headed to surgery, ugh! Poor kid can't catch a break.

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I am to tough and my expectations are to high

Yep, that is me. But, if I don't set my expectations high growth will never happen.

I am not meant to do what I have been doing. My calling is not my job, it is being a mom and elementary school teacher.

Come on universe deal me cards that I love.

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