There are days where I hate my life...

Today is one of them.  I need a car that will fit the baby and the dog comfortably.  Do I find one, no!  I am annoyed.  And, I can only really look on the weekends when my dad is home but he wasn't much help this weekend.  It is depressing, and maybe there are other issues that are making me depressed.  But right now I am unhappy with where my life as gone.  I love Maggie and I am so glad that I have her but I regret moving back home when I got pregnant, I wish I hadn't acted rashly when I decided that.  I wish that the job market didn't suck so much for teachers so that I could be working in an industry that I am passionate about instead of indifferent about.

A lot of wishing isn't getting me anywhere.  But I don't want to be a single mom who gets stuck in a rut.

Good weekend - then...

We had a good weekend - Maggie was relatively healthy, I was relatively healthy we are both getting over a cold and sinus infection (for me).  We went to Newport to the Oregon Coast Aquarium with some of our friends and had a great time.  That was the first time I remember being there and it was Maggie's first time.  It was nice a bit over priced for what they have there.  My favorite aquarium is still the Audubon Aquarium of the Americas in New Orleans.

We got home and I was dead - my back was killing me from hauling Maggie and all her stuff around as well as sitting for such long periods of time in the car.  We took my Dad's Prius which gets great gas mileage (52.6 mpg) but has the most unconformable seats, which are hard and are hard on my back. Ugh!

Sunday I worked on homework and tried to rest up for the week (this is a busy week), we went to one of our friends houses and got some hand-me -down clothes for Maggie - beautiful clothes!!  We ate dinner there and I could tell she was getting hot - as in she was getting a fever.  We packed up and headed home.  I took her temp and it was 101.3  two dr's have told us if her fever gets over 100.5 that Maggie needs to go get her checked for a UTI.  I called the advice nurse and she sent us to the ER at 9pm on a Sunday.  I can tell you that September 26th was Sick Child and Baby Night at St. V's er.  There were so many kids there we were wondering if it was really worth it.  But we finally got in to a room a 10:30pm, got  UTI check and everything came back clean - she had a random fever.  We headed home. As of today (Monday she still has a fever) and cannot go to daycare, my Mom had to take Grandma out so I got to stay with Maggie.  Hopefully the dr. will figure out what is going on because these fevers are getting annoying and going to the Er is getting annoying.

Fingers crossed Maggie will feel better soon.

Uninvited?

I never thought that having a baby would change my friendships so much.  I have always been so accepting of everyone's children and loved them.  But it is amazing to me how it is not reciprocated (granted a few truly love Maggie) but not necessarily the ones I expected.

At the beginning of my pregnancy I lost two friends, one who I considered my best friend and the other a good friend.  I lost them to their own selfishness.  They couldn't accept the lifestyle and choices I had made and thus made judgments against me.  Recently, my other best friend has begun acting strange and while I don't specifically have a three strikes and your out policy it is becoming increasingly hard to want to keep her in our life. 

My best friend invited us to her daughters First Birthday.  I was excited to go, I have hardly seen my friends since Maggie was born and thought this would be a lot of fun.  Unfortunately, she called on Thursday and let me know that she was "uninviting" me to her daughters birthday.  The reason - Maggie is still contagious with Hand, Foot and Mouth Disease.  While that is true based on the CDC the only way she is contagious is if someone basically eats her skin cells.  I don't know how many people at the party would have licked Maggie but I guess that chance was just to great.

Honestly, I have to wonder if the reason wasn't more about the adults than the children.  It is hard to not have my feelings hurt by this recent incident.  I am lucky in that I have other friends who support me and support my lifestyle and choices.  For those friends I am truly grateful.

Sick! Ugh!!

Poor Maggie - came home early from daycare on Friday with "loose stools" aka diarrhea.  I had my mom pick her up when they got home mom checked her temp and it was 100 degrees. 

Saturday - was the SHITS!  literally this poor baby has the worse butt burn I have ever seen.

Day 2 of Daycare and Day 2 after the training...

So Day 2 of daycare went well.  Maggie only cried yesterday for a few minutes when she was going to sleep yesterday.  Today she was so wide eyed all day and took less than 60 minutes of nap the whole day.  So needless to say Maggie fell asleep at 5pm woke up for a few minutes to see me, then back to sleep.  I miss her but when she is asleep I sneak her out of her crib and hold her. 

Day 2 after training - so I started a new job on August 23rd - it is great.  I love the people and think eventually I will fit in - I have big shoes to fill and I think some people are reluctant to have me fill them.  I am getting a cold which is not helping me, but I am working my tushy off and will do great at this job.

Sept. 6, 2010 - Back from our first Vacation

So this weekend we went to Heppner, OR to visit my Dad.  We had a great time.  This was Maggie's first time sleeping overnight anywhere but out house or the hospital.  SHe did really well - she had some sort of allergic reaction to something - we think it was the bottle of pre-made formula.  She got hives, and was vomiting - she got over it within a few hours.  We watched her to make sure she didn't have any trouble with breathing, and she did fine.  But it was scary.  I hate it when she is sick or doesn't feel well.

Heppner was actually a nice little town, so much smaller than Stayton.  You could see from one end to the other.  They had a great looking pool (unfortunately it was closed for the season.)  They have a decent school system there, I have seen their superintendent at the Teacher Job Fairs.  Next time I am there I think I will apply for a job with them.  From what the people of the town say it is time for some new blood in their kindergarten program.

Maggie starts daycare tomorrow - I am freaking out.  1 - it is so expensive ($980 a month) and 2 - because I am afraid she won't get the attention she deserves :)  We will see how it goes.

She is crying for me so I have to go.