Maggie is sick...

So on Monday I took Maggie to the dr. she was just acting kind of off. Turns out
she had an ear infection. The dr. made a side comment "Has she started
vomiting, yet?" I said no. Fast forward about 2 hours she starts vomiting.
Diarrhea not to long after that. We went back to the dr yesterday because this
had been going on since Monday. I had called on Tuesday when she was vomiting
after every drink. They put her on Zofran (anti-nausea) at that point. So she
took her Zofran, if she isn't on Zofran at this point she is throwing up. She
hasn't had a fever and I am vigilant about checking.

Our pediatrician (yesterdays visit) told us to call today with a poop and vomit
count. I called at 12:30, their office had just closed for the day (wish I had
known they were closing early, blame it on sleep deprivation.) I had to wait
for the dr on call, (a dr. who misdiagnosed Maggie the day before she ended up
in the hospital.) He called almost 2 hours after I had called (I called back
and put in another notice for him to call.) He finally calls back and after
hearing the background on what is going on said lets wait until tomorrow, call
tomorrow before 9am and tell them what has happened.

Tonight she starts vomiting (to much time between Zofran I guess thats another
story). So I call and say she is still vomiting (I know I didn't wait but she
threw up 5 times in the last two hours), it has been over an hour and I haven't
heard from the dr.

I am so frustrated. Maggie is sick, she has lost wait and if she keeps the
liquid down (liquid diet) it comes flying out the other in.

Advice? I don't know what to do. I feel like a neurotic parent, maybe this
seems worse to me than it really is.

So this is an FYI for parents at last weeks gathering (sorry), and a plea for
advice.

Gray Hair!!!! On a redhead

yes, it was discovered in the bathroom mirror yesterday at work.  My beautiful red hair is turning gray - I guess we can chalk that up to having a baby.

So I am 30, a single mom, and have gray hair.  Guess I am surely going to die single.  Not that it matters that much I don't plan on getting married but I would love to be in a relationship with someone who loved me.   I miss cuddling...

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Today is Maggie's first Thanksgiving.  The beginning of her first holiday season.  Not sure that she will get to experience the madness of Black Friday - though I know I will.  Found a great deal on a swing set at Toys R Us, and a little push/walker car thing, I will be heading there tonight at 10pm.  Tomorrow at 4am I will be in line at JC Penny - does JCP have lines in the morning? 

I think it will be easier to leave her sleeping at home where her Grandpa can take care of her when she wakes up. I fully expect to be home by 7am.  The only store for Friday is JC Penny.  I am kind of glad that TRU is opening tonight.  Oops, I forgot that we will make the mad dash to BRU to pick up wipes.  I love their $5 wipes.  Buy three put them in the car go back in. ;)

I am tired...

of the drama.  I tell my story a hundred times a week and fifty of those times I get the well you should have known better speech from the religious people and the other fifty I get a lot of support.  I am not looking for sympathy, I am looking for support and understanding.

ready, ready to run...okay I am just ready for Maggie to feel better

It never occurred to me that Maggie was born with a birth defect until this week.  I guess I always thought of it as just being a temporary problem.  But as I was explaining Maggie's Urinary Tract problems to my bosses I realized that in fact it is a birth defect.  That makes me wonder then what I did wrong when I was pregnant, is it because I drank a few cokes? or took anti-depressants? or was just generally anxious and depressed did those things have an effect on her development?

It was a long week, Tuesday started with us in the ER with Maggie having a hi fever and her fever continued to bother us for the next 2 days.  Today (Friday) she finally seems to have kicked it.  Took her to daycare today, yay!

It is incredibly frustrating because I lost 2 days of work (my mom watched Maggie for one of the three days) along with the loss of the daycare we had already paid for.  That is a loss of approximately $500. 

I have always thought it was wrong for parents to send their kids to school or daycare when they are really sick - like more than just a cold.  Obviously someone sent their kids to school sick because Maggie got sick, I don't think that parents think about the impact of their actions on others or they just don't care.  I guess I care to much I wouldn't want Maggie getting someone else sick.  Yet, Maggie's teacher talks fo kids who are sent to school loaded up on Tylenol when the tylenol waers off their fevers spike and then they get sent home.  After they have contaminated every other kd in the school and the teachers.  Makes me loose faith in people.

I HATE daylight savings time!!!!!

When they came up with this concept I am sure a man did it and I am sure he said lets screw up all the little kids.  We kept Maggie up til 8:15 last night but she was up at 5am this morning.  Ugh!  She went to sleep at 5:15pm tonight.  This is going to be a fun week!!

I am so tired, and feel like crap - I either have the worlds worst allergies or a cold.  I thought it was allergies because of the change of seasons and all the mold and crap in the back yard.  But maybe it isn't, maybe it is a cold.

I am freaking out a little bit I have a few vials of my sperm donor on ice but now I am thinking I don't have enough.  I wish I could see into the future and know exactly when I would get pregnant and just do it then.  Instead of all the tracking and chance taking that may happen.  So I might buy two more vials. 

Good Night!

Started baby prooing...

but the drill died after the second crew.  I was installing the little door lock things to keep the cupboards closed and free of little hands.  I got it half way installed and the drill died.  That was Saturday night.  That is as far as I got.

So I sent her a letter today, the one who helped to ruin my life.  It was more of an e-mail.  Basically asking why.  I hope she responds because it means she isn't such a bad person.  If she doesn't respond then I wonder what the heck was thinking being friends with her.

I am in a totally weird place with all of my friends.  So I know it is me and I can't get out of this little funk.  ugh!  I don't feel depressed right now, I feel good mentally and emotionally but I am acting weird and I don't know why.  Sorry guys!

Okay, I am running away from home.  (just kidding)